Unpacked : A life unpacked, unedited and mostly unashamed

I?m fed up of feeling inadequate? F..k what does that even mean? The word inadequate suggests that I?m in fact equating myself to something, I don?t even know what that thing is, so how can I be not it? It?s a frustrating human thing we all do, we measure ourselves up against shit that ain?t real or even measurable. So now I have to work out what my metric value system is and what I?m not equating to so I can ensure that my emotional suffering is actually worth the effort and time I give it to thrive. When I was younger my inadequacies were centered around not being cool enough, I was at times a quiet kid, at times a complete loon and at times just going through the motions so was pretty much in neutral. I?d look at the other kids and wish I fitted in with them, with no real idea why I felt that way. I didn?t have any actual evidence to suggest that perhaps they didn?t want me to fit it, I just felt that way.  Inadequate! And so that was the  card I played. I can see now how those behaviours have stuck, and yet perhaps a variety of reasons, I?m still playing the same cards, from the same deck I had as a child. So always in search of this elusive ?right fit?, I?ve been wandering the planet trying to see where I might belong without ever actually trying to fit into anything. How about YOU? It you are at the place in your life where you need a little guidance then perhaps its time to ?Unpack?